I planned on going on hiatus for longer to get my creativity back in check, but I felt inspired and now I’m ready. I also miss pouring out my thoughts here, it’s very therapeutic.
Firstly, my mind still can’t fathom that we’re in the midst of a global pandemic, and we’ve been going through it for 4 months! Can you imagine?
I’m one of those people who love keeping to themselves; a true introvert. So the time off has been restorative. There have been good days and gloomy days but all in all, my goal is to come out of this a better person. Which means persevering the hard times, feeling them, accepting them and learning from them.
I have come to appreciate the simpler things, like Zoom calls with friends, making clothes, reading, finding good songs (listening to Born tired by Jhene Aiko and putting it on repeat), taking long drives, journaling, learning new crafts like how to use Adobe InDesign, baking muffins or buying them from a bakery and telling people you made them haha.
At the beginning of quarantine, I was keeping busy with school work and exams, but once I was done with my end of semester exams that flame burnt out. I had to sit down and re-evaluate.
I get paralyzing fear when I think about my dreams and what it’ll take to get there, and the fact that I’m already 27 and haven’t achieved them yet. This downtime has put a lot of things into perspective and I’m now ready to put myself out there, meet new people, progress my career and get things going… hit the ground running, so to speak.
The way things are currently set up, some days will feel shittier than others and that’s okay. We just have to remind ourselves that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. We need to go easy on ourselves and allow ourselves to feel. It’s ok to feel sad, overwhelmed, hell, it’s even okay to feel anxious. Just don’t let your feelings get the best of you. It also helps to talk things through; though expressing myself has never been my strongest suit, I try venting to my friends from time to time and that helps.
Listening to music, watching comedies and taking walks has also been very relaxing. It is the simple things.
I know we are all struggling in different ways but I hope this made you feel a little less alone. I’m sure one day we’ll look back and have a deeper appreciation of how things worked out.
I like keeping things short and sweet so I’ll end this here. Please stay safe and see you next Wednesday.